Oddny – If Only, Part 2

The Night Lord’s Feast

Embla and I walk through the lavish halls, hands clasped tightly together, searching for what should be empty plates. Instead, the host stands at a heavy-laden table and loudly offers slices of cake and pie; welcoming everyone to share in his generosity. If only they could understand how much she will have to suffer on their behalf, to cover their indulgences.

“If only there was food to eat, I am so hungry, but there is none” Caterina’s accent makes the words sound a little strange, but never has companionship been such a balm. She didn’t know our traditions, but she was the first to listen and follow along when Embla explained it. Lord Rennett and his friends could learn a great deal from her.

Walking to our beds after leaving the feast, our conversation is interrupted by a shadow moving in the darkness, and a hissing noise from behind us. We all run, Caterina the only one of us with the presence of mind to yell “Vampire!” as she does. My own scream of “Help!” is cut off as I am knocked to the ground, my blood pooling beneath me. If only I had been aware sooner, I could have done more than just put my body between Embla and our foe. If I don’t recover, at least I will have died protecting her.

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Digging the Graves of the Kallevik Wolves

I stare at Vestri’s body, the armor I just finished now torn and bloodied. My gaze moves to Virgil’s body next to him. The half-finished armor in my bag grows heavy, weighed down by the deep wounds my work might have prevented. If only my fingers were faster. If only I knew how to craft better armor. Under different circumstances that might have helped them survive, but not in a fight against The She-Wolf. I shudder as I wonder if they fought more than just Her children.

As my arms tire, my mind goes back to the beginning of this day; when Tempest was jokingly telling everyone they were either ‘Vogel’ or ‘Not Vogel’ and put me in the first group. If only I could earn such an honor, to be grouped with the Savior of The Hunt. Now that I am the only ‘Vogel’ left alive, his story must be told.

Later that night, I tell Gren and Caterina what Embla and I have discussed. This place no longer feels safe, perhaps especially because the Disir were here. The way I see it, we have two options. We could stay here and work to support the people that so many have died for on this day. Or we could go find Neccio; and tell the stories of the dead on our way. None of us need to discuss our options or time to think on our choices. We will stay long enough to help at the farms to end the Drudgery; but after that we are gone. If only we could stay.

Oddny – If Only, Part 1

As we eat lunch before Convocation, Shadow Step approaches our table to say “I am looking for folks who can be unobserved for a task later today. If you know of someone, please send them to me.”

“What exactly do you need them to be able to do?” I reply, picturing hours spent silently in a hunter’s blind, barely moving until the time is right to let an arrow fly.

He explains “We need people who can move in the darkness without being seen by guards”

“If I know of someone, I will send them your way” I reply, dismayed at the memory of loud gravel crunching beneath my feet. If only their work was in the forest, or if only I was better suited for more crowded places.

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A few days after Forum, I sit alone in a patch of sunlight; hunched over bits of padding and scraps of leather; muttering my thoughts to myself as an armor sleeve slowly takes shape.

“Should we ask our clan for help?” Embla had asked this not long before she left to scout.

My answer tasted bitter on my tongue. “No, we know what their answer would be. They showed it when they sent us away”

An interesting twist of fate, that we find another Snow Lion trying to uncover what happened to the Stone Antlers. If only we could help him. If only they would come when we called. If only we could show them what we have made of ourselves upon their arrival.

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Preparing for Disblot

“Why must you be the Speaker for these people we hardly know, and for this place we just arrived at?”

I don’t bother to ask Embla this, because I already know the answer. Lord Rennet’s invitation to his Night Lords Feast the same night as the ceremony proves that no one here has ever felt the gaze of The World while they work. If only I had paid better attention to Mama, then I could be the one to bear the aching hunger and the sting of deception carved into my hands.

Väkislaaksoon

Runeheim Leadership

I have scouted the area nearby the fort in the mountains, and send Astrid, Ulla, and Bil to do the same. The following is my report.

The mountains laden with fog and sharp stones gave way to a lush valley with green grass and open air. A dried riverbed ran along the groove of it and when I followed it to its conclusion there appeared to be some kind of constructed tunnel leading into the mountain. It was beyond my expertise to go further, but the valley looks peaceful and I suspect the tunnel is dwarven in make. I would suggest reaching out to Norri, or some of his dwarf-friends before beginning a dig in the area to see what lie beneath the earth.

I will call this valley Vlakislaaksoon, translated into the common tongue, Valley of the Dwarves.

I will be making my way back to the fort now.

-Torkeld

Four Rituals

1.

When they ran ragged into Runeheim it was after dusk, with a ghost to greet them and undead on their heels. There was no time for arms lifted in Lion’s Paw greeting, no time for proper face paint and introductions, only confused kowtowing to a dead man from another land who didn’t have the decency to go haunt his own ancestor’s graveyards.

By the time Neccio and Katarina finally returned to the rented room to sleep, Embla had finished tying knots in straw pulled from the mattress and left them in a protective line across the threshold. The Hestrali stepped carefully over them without comment.

2.

The morning Embla leaves their camp outside Runeheim to go scouting, she prays. Kneeling in the field, the grass smells bright and earthy where her hands have dug through it and she breathes it in deep, like incense, like campfire smoke, once, twice. She puts a pebble in her mouth, lets the dirt coat her tongue and mix with her spit before tucking the stone into the pouch of her cheek. Grit rubs the back of her teeth when she speaks, the slightest slur when her words get stuck on the stone.

“White Benalus, lion of the desolate place, I submit to you in the wilderness.”

She bows her head, speaks her father’s words with her mother’s tongue, opens her eyes when she spits grit into the palm of her hand to mix with the fresh dirt already cupped there.

“Hide me from the eyes of bear and panther and evil men, save my courage for the dark.”

Embla smears the mud in two stripes from the corner of her eye to her temples, thick like gnarled tree bark, just another fir in the woods.

“Shine bright on running creeks so I may drink, and keep me from the desperation of still water.”

Clear water from her wineskin rinses off her hands, swirls cold as dew in her mouth and around the pebble. She spits the stone into her clean hand, dries it on her skirt, closes her first around it, breathes again, once, twice.

“By your torch alone will my feet be guided back to the hearth that knows me.”

She nods once, levers herself up, turns back to wait for the others to wake. The mud will be cracked and dry by the time they see it. The Hestralians will not ask, and she won’t offer. Oddny will not ask because she already knows.

When Embla hugs her cousin goodbye where the trail parts, she leaves the pebble in Oddny’s pocket and a smudge of dirt under her chin. The grit grinds in her teeth all day.

3.

The group of them stand around the midnight fire, Alma beaming and content with her strange Gothic oven next to her. Embla can feel the runes of deception painted on her hands, and is grateful for them even with an empty stomach. These outlanders come here, throw decadent parties on the eve of Disblot, draw the Old God’s jealous eye with no regard for the people who work the land who will suffer for it. They come here and bring their monsters with them, and now bring their evil relics with the claim they will feed the world, but forget to mention it is happy to let Njords starve.

It is a desecration of hospitality that takes Embla’s breath away. She will need to be a deceiver to take part in this “cleansing” ritual without losing her temper. The clank of armor and weapons in the dark around her is a constant reminder that even the most banal of rituals is done under the boot of foreigners these days.

When they ask for stories of meals, Embla speaks loudly of salmon and old men’s lies, tries to make eye contact with the young karls drinking across the fire pit. She raises her voice, as a Speaker, and wills them to hear the story under her story. She’s no skald, but she knows tales land like seeds in the hearts of Njords. It might take until next spring, but maybe one of them will grow.

4.

Acid roils in Embla’s aching stomach, partly the hunger and partly the rage. Oddny bumps against her shoulder as they both sprinkle ale over the six – no, seven – fresh graves they were leaving behind in Hrafnastali. Embla has already said her words, made her prayers, and now it is time for her and Oddny’s most sacred of traditions.

When they get back to the road proper, Embla grabs her cousin’s hand, plants her feet, and refuses to look back at Rennet’s shiny new gates. “Fuck this place,” she intones seriously. “And fuck these rich invaders.” Oddny nods, and they hurry to catch up with Katarina and Gren down the long road.

Say Something

“I need to bring you back, Brenna”
“I’m not going. Leave, Baldwin”
I stood there, watching, thinking of something, anything to say to help this situation but a void found my waiting thoughts. Tensions were rising. An altercation was imminent and I had to say something.

“STOP”

I commanded the two divine beings who turned to gaze at me. The will of God, and…something else, stared back and what authority I thought I had wilted. My voice silenced, my thoughts yet again desperately grasping at the void for something to cut through the chaos. I prayed, hoping to find some kind of certainty, confidence, or decisiveness that would help guide me in this. Hellfire, so said Baldwin, began to be flung. Divine along with more and more profane blows were traded and Baldwin faltered, bleeding profusely. I was needed and I knew what I could do to help. My legs found haste as I ran to find my pack. My bunk? Empty. Outside the tavern? Not there. Inside? By the foot of the chair I was not moments earlier sitting at. I snatched a bandage from the front and rushed back to the fray. Baldwin seemed fine, and my heart settled yet again into this uncertain void. Why couldn’t I lead? Why couldn’t I say anything that could help this situation? Ragnar threw himself into the conflict challenging Brenna and that’s when I knew this was not my fight. I hated it, but I was powerless. I wish I could calm Brenna, to convince Baldwin there was another way to do things, but no solutions came to mind. I watched in sullen resignation as Brenna and, now Ragnar, fought and felt my angel’s presence behind me. The mask I wore, the hood I’d dawned weighed heavily on me as I felt, yet again, death’s presence in our community. A comforting wave washed over me as Ragnar did what he felt he had to do. Now my job had started. To be the pillar to those who need it, the guide post for those lost. Why, though, couldn’t that have been sooner? I could’ve saved a valued member of our community had I tried harder, said anything, done something. Again, the wave washed over me as tears rolled down my face under my mask.

Torkeld’s Stand

We are pushing the night back in to the woods, I am pushing the night. There are Warriors behind me, and Spawn in front of me. A simple purpose from the Disir. Push.

We break into a clearing, Our line spreads and breaks. The spawn push in from all angles.

I swing and clash with all my might. They keep coming, endless hordes of them.

My defense breaks, I get a nick, bleeding. Another. And Another. I let out one more battlecry as I lunge at them.

It is done.

I have done what any man should.

I have done what I could.

And now, I rest.

Ghosts of Raven’s Keep

Eidr trudged along the weathered stone wall of Hrafnikastali, boots scuffing against the ancient mortar with each heavy step. The cold air bit his exposed face, the wind carrying the scent of pine and distant wood smoke. Far below, the valley spread out like a vast tapestry, the lights of Kjarralund twinkling like fallen stars at the base of the mountain. The town’s warm glow seemed impossibly distant from where he stood, wrapped in the lingering chill of the high fortress.

The sight should have been comforting, but it only deepened the ache in his chest. It had been a long time since he last stood here, back when Hrafnikastali had still held hope for a future, a home for the soldiers of the Saenger House.

Back then, he hadn’t come alone. Kotkell and Hallbjorn had walked these walls with him, their hearts filled with plans and pride. The memory of Hallbjorn flashed in his mind—his towering frame, his booming laughter. He had been a giant among men, an Avalanche on the battlefield, unstoppable. And then, the grotesque image—Hallbjorn’s body, torn apart, his chest a bloodied ruin where his heart had once been. He remembered the night he’d fled into the woods, lost in grief. Alone, he had crouched in the dark, offering up the life of a fox, its blood soaking the earth, begging Aufvaldr to take the sacrifice and honor Hallbjorn, even if his friend’s faith had lain elsewhere—with the White Lion. But there had been no answer. Only silence and the cold.

Back then, the fortress had been alive with the sounds of construction—Kotkell and Hallbjorn leading the effort to build a training yard for the Saenger soldiers who were to call Hrafnikastali home. Eidr had never seen a place so grand. Even the hallowed halls of the Runespeakers in Runeheim paled in comparison to the newly restored walls of this fortress. There had been so much hope then. So much purpose. But that hope had been short-lived.

The Saenger Lords had left after only a few months. Soon after, the Doghearts came. Raiding, pillaging, tearing apart what had been so briefly restored. The Saenger soldiers who had been left behind had been scattered and defeated, only rescued when the city retaliated. He saw some of them now and again, their former livery mixed with the colors of other houses, their allegiance a distant memory, their glory forgotten.

Eidr’s heart sank as he recalled the meetings held in dimly lit chambers, the faces of the town’s leaders shadowed by their own fears and ambitions. He had stood before them, passion in his voice, imploring them to see the strategic importance of re-garrisoning Hrafnikastali. “It is vital,” he had argued, “for the defense of our supply routes and the protection of our eastern borders. This fortress stands as a bulwark against invasion, a first line of defense against the Doghearts and any others who would threaten us.” But they had been unmoved, their minds set on developing Dragomir Fort and expanding the farms at Unverbrannter, placing all their eggs in one fragile basket. A strategy that had backfired when the Fafnir’s came roaring into the city, driving them from their homes. Eidr touched his neck, feeling the weight of the stone and wood necklaces that now replaced the official chains of office he had once worn as Master of Coin.

As Eidr stood on the cold stone wall, a sense of unreality washed over him, as if he were a ghost haunting the remnants of his own past. Behind him, in the grand hall of Hrafnikastali, laughter and music spilled forth like a mockery of the fortress’s former glory. The lavish party, hosted by the new owners—the Renett family—was a jarring contrast to the memories that clung to the stone walls. Eidr had been informed that the lord of the Renett family was a slaver, his actions recognized and condemned by many, a cruel hypocrisy that the south had brought with them as they claimed to damn the very institution. It stung like a wound reopened, a reminder that what once had been a place of brotherhood and valor was now filled with unfamiliar faces and foreign banners. He had once shared the hall with brothers-in-arms, at least in service, but now he felt like an intruder, an outsider peering into a world that had moved on without him. The warmth of celebration contrasted sharply with the chill of the night air, a bitter reminder of all that had been lost.

Inside the hall, amidst the revelry, Eidr had encountered a woman whose presence felt like a spell woven from the finest threads of destiny. She was an Indr’atma, a “woman among women” from the far-off land of Sha’ra, her attire shimmering with intricate designs and colors that seemed to dance in the light. The very concept of her role was foreign to the Njordic frontier, yet her confidence held a kind of power he found captivating. She had peered into his soul, her magic revealing glimpses of his future, while he had reciprocated with a humble offering—throwing runes for her nephew as recompense. The fortune she had offered echoed in his mind, resonating with the life-casting he had undergone upon reaching adulthood, where he had clutched his heart, a stark reminder that change was not merely an option but a necessity.

As he stood there, the echoes of her fortune mingled with the laughter behind him, the stakes of his own journey pressing upon him like the weight of the fortress walls. He had become a man caught between what was and what could be, desperately seeking clarity in a world that had turned so foreign, yet resonant with the deep-seated knowledge that transformation was not just possible, but essential.

Staring out at the twinkling lights of Kjarralund below, Eidr’s thoughts turned to Rosto, his friend whose life had been shattered by a foreign knight’s brutal blow—a curse born from dangerous magical residue, the same as crusted a huge crater just north of Hrafnikastali. That cursed energy hung in the air like a specter, too close for comfort, a constant reminder of the peril that surrounded them. The very land they inhabited felt stained by that malevolent magic, a constant, gnawing reminder of the perils lurking at their borders, dangers that threatened to swallow them whole. But it was not just the land that bore scars; Rosto had been reborn from the ashes of his own death, brought back to life by Sveas, the Cold of Winter. Eidr could still feel the chilling weight of his friend’s skin under his fingertips as he frantically searched for a pulse, praying for a sign of life in the lifeless body before him, yet jealous at the same time. Perhaps his prayers had been answered.

Where had Rosto gone now? The people of this land were trapped beneath the heavy yoke of gods who turned their backs on them, invaders who pillaged their homes, and the tyranny of the strong who enforced their will upon the weak. Eidr felt the weight of this truth pressing against him, igniting a fire within him. He realized he could no longer remain a passive observer, watching the world he once cherished crumble under the burdens of fate and fear.

He had to change. Action was imperative; inertia was no longer an option. The pace of events needed to quicken, or else nothing would ever shift. A sense of urgency coursed through him like a pulse, igniting the embers of determination within his heart.

Eljunseed

Eidr stood before the open graves, each hollow in the earth a silent testament to the lives taken too soon. The sun hung low in the sky, casting a golden light that felt surreal against the stark reality of the scene. Five graves, freshly dug and unevenly shaped, lay side by side like an unwilling battalion awaiting the inevitable.

Each grave cradled a body, the faces obscured by shadows but the weight of their loss palpable in the air. On the chest of each fallen warrior rested a weapon. Broken swords, their edges dulled from use, bows crushed and splintered, axes free of hafts, remnants of once proud arms that had defended their village against the She-Wolf Jorg, Daughter of the Earth.

The funeral crowd had dwindled, leaving only a few mourners whispering words of comfort to one another, their voices hushed as if speaking too loudly might awaken the spirits of the fallen. Eidr watched as the others trickled away, their sorrow etched deep into their faces. He shuddered at the thought of the She-Wolf, her tyrannical divinity looming over them all, a specter of dread that silenced their hearts.
He stepped closer to the graves, his gaze drawn to one in particular. Olof, the man he had met only hours earlier, lay there, his once vibrant presence now reduced to lifeless flesh. They had spoken of herbs and healing, a camaraderie forged in the fleeting moments of life. Olof had shared laughter and stories, and Eidr had hoped they would work together in the days to come. Now, that future had been cruelly snatched away.

Kneeling by the grave, Eidr reached into his satchel, his fingers brushing against the delicate herb he had chosen. He withdrew the Eljunseed, its fragile, serrated leaves glistening in the waning sunlight. It was an herb he’d seen before, bundled up among the herbs he’d been given as taxes over his time while serving as Master of Coin. He knew the scent of the prepared substance, taught as he’d learned what herbs worked with what, but he had only just learned its name. It was common in Runeheim, a stubborn survivor that thrived in the harsh northern soils. It was one of the many things Eidr had learned in his conversations with Olof.

With a heavy heart, Eidr dropped the herb into the grave. It nestled among the earth, a quiet offering. Folklore had taught that hanging Eljunseed in the home would ward off the malific, the cursed spirits of the dead that haunted the northern wastes. But Eidr knew better than to place faith in such tales. He had spoken to those whose knowledge he trusted, who had studied the spirits and the nature of the herbs. Eljunseed held no power against the restless dead. Yet still, it felt right to leave it with Olof, a connection to their shared knowledge.

Perhaps it could serve both purposes, he mused. The practical and the mythical could coexist, intertwined in the fabric of their lives. Maybe the comfort that folklore provided was worth something, granting the villagers courage in the face of death, allowing them to stand tall against the dark uncertainty of their existence. Though it would not prevent their deaths, he thought grimly. But their faith allowed them to be brave in the face of death.

Eidr’s thoughts spiraled deeper, the weight of his own guilt pressing against his chest. What the community believed mattered, and it could not be dismissed lightly. The faith in the White Lion and the ancient traditions of Njordr shaped their lives, woven into the very fabric of their existence, both of them. Though he knew better than to rely on the whims of any deity, that understanding felt like a hollow victory in the face of overwhelming grief. Faith was just a different kind of strength—one he felt slipping through his fingers like sand. It was a comforting lie that people told themselves to remain resilient against the storms of life. As he knelt by Olof’s grave, Eidr couldn’t help but envy those who still held on to such illusions, wishing desperately that he could believe in something, anything, to help carry him through the dark days ahead.

Lucien had been speaking passionately to Eivor just after the graves had been dug, his voice resolute as he urged every man to open their eyes and recognize the oppression forced upon them. He implored them to see the lies that their oppressors told themselves to justify their cruelty, to rise against the injustices that stained their lives. Eidr couldn’t help but agree with his sentiments, yet he struggled to dismiss the good that had emerged from their shared strength. In a land where the weak often perished and only the strong survived, the vulnerable in Runeheim were protected by the very community that rallied around them. It was this bond that had allowed Eidr to survive thus far, the knowledge that he was not alone, that he had found a refuge among those who would defend him when the darkness closed in.

Perhaps, he mused, two truths could indeed exist in parallel. Good and bad, lies and truths, they danced together in a complex tapestry of life, interwoven in a way that made the world both beautiful and grotesque. Hypocrisy was part of nature itself, an inevitable duality that shaped their existence. It was a bittersweet realization; while he yearned for clarity, for a black-and-white understanding of the world that other people seemed to see, he found himself caught in the gray.

Bastion

Malachi was meditating inside a cabin. Right now it was just Alma near him, but soon enough more would come. Meeting Euthymius here was a blessing, the younger Paladin knew that he would need much guidance from his brother in his mission.
Malachi opens his eyes and sees Alma, sitting there lost in her journal. Probably thinking about what to cook for people. He watches her happily for several seconds before she turns towards him. He closes his eyes quickly to hide the fact that he had been staring, but the smile remains on his face.

He meditates on his Purpose. He meditates on his coming challenges and the things he must face. He meditates on all of the people in this new area and what could happen if he fails. He opens his eyes to see Alma again and is very thankful for the people surrounding him. Even if he should fail, humanity will always serve as a Bastion against the darkness.

Wrath

The plan was simple. Gather the town for an exorcism. A man who had been at rest was corrupted by a dark power and all Malachi needed to do to help was to protect the inner circle while the man was helped.
If only it were that simple.

The fight began. A fight had been expected, but the only thing that had been known was that the anger of this man would manifest and try to enter the circle.

It was dark. Malachi’s eyes had trouble adjusting but he stood fast, protecting his section of the circle. It was just him and Neccio so they would need to remain vigilant at all times and work quickly. Something rushed Malachi and he stepped forward on instinct and struck out. When his blade came back to a guard position there was fresh blood. And a cry of pain from his opponent. He had harmed a man. Horror scraped up from his gut, threatening to reach his heart.

“Remember your training. Stay calm. The wound isn’t fatal, he can be stabilized.

The soul does violence to itself to itself when it harms any man – for all humankind is but a single emanation of God.”

Malachi stood there for several seconds on that battlefield, staring down at the man on the ground. Another assailant charged forward and struck Malachi, but their blade seemed to slide off his flesh as he took a breath to center himself against the pull of his anguish. In another moment he was mobile again, moving to put himself in between the soldiers and the members of the Runeheim Forum, in the hopes of preventing any more harm coming to people.

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The battle ends. The malefic releases the soldiers and many of them fall to the ground screaming in pain. Several people move over to help them. Malachi is relieved, knowing that those that remain will be okay. And so Malachi also falls to the ground and cleans the blood remaining on his blade.