Tiff makes a Pasta Dinner

Alfred and I are making one of my favorite meals today! Spaghetti, meatballs, garlic bread, and a fresh greens salad!

The kitchens here in Runeheim are a little tighter than the kitchen at the Fort. The steam mixes with the smells of the herbs on the bread, hardly a better smell than fresh garlic bread! We boil the pasta, heat the sauce and the meatballs and get everything out to the table, all is well! Alfred hears some kind of commotion outside and takes his enormous skewer to go investigate, I’m sure he’s fine… Let’s get the House fed!

Tiff’s observations on her Beehive

Spring is here!

The hive is thriving and happy, the winters chill claimed only a few workers. I inspected the vents on the hive, and cleared out the damaged parts, looks like a weasel or something was scrabbling at the honey, I’ll have to ask Guy to look at the fence.

I looked down into the main chambers, seeing all the happy fuzzy bees working to fill up the combs is a great sign! the queen looks hale and hearty for the warm season, right around the corner. I know the nords were saying they wanted a Mead Hall at Court, so we’ll need lots of honey!

I have some ideas for the next tea party! I look forward to incorporating some of this liquid gold into my treats.

A Letter to my Beloved Regarding my Sins

To my Beloved,

I have sinned this last forum. My Lady knows of my sin, and now you will as well.

It was in Forum, when the sun was rising. A siege was occurring from the forces of Jarl Overturner, cruel men with bile in their hearts and a wish to do harm to the good people. While war makes dogs the simplest of men, these men were wolves that were devouring all people, not just soldiers. They kidnapped emissaries, stabbed soldiers and even my friend Staccato D’Castille.

One of these men somehow got past my defenses and took a sprint towards my Lady. I saw through the blood in his eyes that he wanted nothing more than to hurt her, that nothing would stop him. Even after downed, they continued to rise up through pure malice and grit to strike again, and I would not let that happen! I took flight after him, my feet pounding against the ground to close the distance! I saw him clamber up onto the porch and I could not see Olivia, I could not see Sir Rowland. I did not know if my Lady, my best friend, was in danger!

Fear consumed me. It gripped me like death, and before I knew it my blade was slicing through the neck of this man, killing the soldier even while he was downed. I should not have doubted, Sir Rowland was, and is, a truly incredible knight. But I was afraid.

As the blood dripped down onto the ground, staining the porch that previously only held memories of merriment… I felt guilt. Guilt for cutting down a man who had a family, who could have had love.

I immediately sought atonement, but the guilt still clings to me like the winter rain here in Runeheim. While I know that by my Lady’s words I am not to kill, I know that if her life was on the line in that same way again….I do not know if I could act differently. I strive to be better, to offer mercy like Benalus, but when those who I truly love are on the line I find myself to struggle with the teachings of our Lord.

I will focus my attention on Saint Istra, whose proverbs resound with my inner turmoil: “The blade, God’s most sacred tool. With it, a mere man can control fate. The blade can end life and give it back. It can create and destroy, the fulcrum of time and destiny. Yet I knew not if the blade or action was truly mine. Is the blade an extension of me, or am I wielded by it? There is a mindlessness in practiced action. And in the aftermath of these times, I would gaze upon the work that my hands had wrought and wondered who had actually guided me.”

My atonement will be my forgiveness, and I do not expect Benalus or you to see me as the Knight I yearn to be until I complete my task.

Forever yours,
Lorelei

A Letter to be Discarded into a Fire Before it Reaches her Beloved

My sweet Beloved.

It has been weeks since my hand has held a quill rather than a pen, as we are all working earnestly towards the salvation of Runeheim. Since Felix’s explanation of the famine in Runeheim and the town’s consensus to prioritize our food stores it seems selfish to take time for you, even if it is what your heart truly wants. But I have snuck away and by the light of the moon I wanted to take this moment for just us.

There was a story I never told you. It was one of the earliest love stories I found in the libraries back in Port Valeria stuck between two of my required readings given to me by my tutor of the Spade. The Clever Lady and Servant – I would be remiss if I didn’t write it down. I told it to the people around the high fire, as I told the spirits were drawn to the fire, I will now recount it for you.

“Once upon a time there was a Lady, as most love stories have. She was born by a Count, and so was to be the single heiress of her Counties. And they were benevolent, kind to their people, and she was beloved by all. As a budding countess she was well-read and versed in the arts, and for every moon that passed so did her beauty grow. She loved riddles, word parlor games, and most of all laughing. If her heart had any weakness, it was humor.

It was this last virtue that made her fall in love with a simple farmboy just outside her Castle. Everything about him was plain. He was from a small family of no nobility, was not particularly handsome nor strong. Quite honestly he was not…remarkable. But he did not need to be. He had one ability, and it was to make the young Countess laugh. Sometimes love is funny that way, it is not a culmination of beauty, charm, or skill, it can just be moments of laughter between pressed lips, smiles across the field as one looks down from the balcony and one looks up from the dirt.

“But there was a third player between this obvious match, one that was ruled by greed. An Old Merchant, that had been passing through the county and upon meeting her knew of her value. Hungry for only the most valuable things in the land, he worked with the darkest of forces and meanest of men to start to break down the county and send it into chaos. Thievery, vandalism, and crookery, it took many years but eventually he twisted the metaphorical screw deep enough and forced the family of the Lady into a proposal. Her dowry could save the people of the county, how could she say no?

“At the announcement of their marriage the simple farmboy did the first courageous thing of his life- He made a proposition: If the farmboy could present three gifts more valuable than the dowry before the next day’s wedding then the Old Merchant would need to surrender the dowry and leave. He promised a gift of gold, a gift of silver, and a gift of pearls. But, if he was unable to find these items then he would forfeit his life in whatever way the Old Merchant wished. So the deal was struck, hands were shaken, and he went to find treasures worthy of his love. He would need to present one at dusk, at midnight, and one before dawn.

“Gold, gold, gold. He had less than four hours to find some! The farmboy had never had real gold in his life, and so he thought of the only gold thing he had ever seen. From the farm’s silos he gathered all the flax left from the last harvest and brought it together in a wheelbarrow. And the Lady, at the same time, decided to tip the wine cask and provide heavy libations at the party. The Old Merchant was quite drunk as the first gift was presented….And without his wits was overcome with greed. That much “gold?” A whole wheelbarrow full! It was much more valuable than his dowry! So with wine on his lips he conceited, the first gift was more valuable than the dowry!

“Silver, silver, silver. He only had till midnight to find some! The farmboy had never had real silver in his life, and so he thought of the only silver thing he had ever seen. He went to the local watering hole and filled four barrels to the top with fresh water. Taking them outside, the beautiful moon peeked down at them, a reflection of silver across the surface. As he loaded them up in his cart the Lady, at the same time, poured the last of the wine, serving the Old Merchant every last drop before dragging him towards the balcony to ‘see his prize.’ The Old Merchant was still quite drunk as the second gift was presented….And without his wits was overcome with greed. That much ‘silver?’ Three barrels full! It was much more valuable than his dowry! So with wine deep in his belly he conceited, the second gift was more valuable than the dowry!”

“Pearls, Pearls, Pearls…He only had till dawn to find some! The farmboy had never seen a real pearl in his life, and he thought of the only pearl he had ever seen. He did not go fetch anything, but simply waited at the castle, watching the festivities as night slowly changed to dawn. So when the drunken Old Merchant stepped forward to demand his last gift, the farmboy did the only true skill he had: He made the Lady laugh. And as she did her shining teeth lit up the room, so did the farmboy’s smile also grew! The Old Merchant was as drunk as one could be as the third gift was presented….And without his wits was overcome with greed. That many “pearls?” Two oysters full! It was much more valuable than his dowry!

And so they went off, the drunk Old Merchant bested by the two. And the Lady and the farmboy were to be wed.”

And that was the ending I told at the fire. It is how I wish it to end.

But that is not the true ending that was given. As, it was not by accident that the story was given to me. As I turned the last page I realized that the story was a lesson: Because the Old Merchant was not going to leave without his gifts. The ‘Gold’ sacks was put into his carriage, the ‘Silver’ barrels sealed and brought as well. But his pearls were still to be his, no? And so with the help of the darkest of forces and meanest of men he made sure to take each and every ‘pearl’ from their lips. Because, in a Spade’s training one must remember: Love is never without pain. And it is not enough to be clever, to be funny, or to be in love. It is only through cruelty and power: The one with the darkest of forces, and the meanest of men, will always prevail.

The next day my training was to practice removing teeth from cadavers, and once I pulled them out of the bodies I was sent away to train with the shield with Uncle Otto. It was then I knew who wrote that story. It was from his journal. That day I realized that the rosary around his wrist were not pearls, as I had once believed.

…Upon reflection, this letter is not for you my sweet. It is a farewell to this story. Maybe it is best that the true ending is not shared. It will be closed and put away, for another Spade to read.

Forever yours,
Lorelei

On the War, Late Spring Lion Age 611

Jarl Overturner’s men begin haranguing the forum this season, free from the chill on their bones and warmed by the razed capital. Fortunately, we are able to hold them off with our local cadre, though it seemed more like play watching Sir Jacquline skipping around behind them slaying them left and right.

But why do they keep getting up?

They are beaten back by the dozen, knocked to their knees and sword bent over mine. As I looked to one after breaking his blade he looked to me with a fierce anger in his eyes, scrabbling madly at my plate and blade with his nails. Why won’t you stop?

My blade fell upon him once more, in anger, and again. But as I withdrew it, I felt regret. The man before me is no more, I had taken his persistence, his vigor, and ended it. He seemed a brave man, strong and skilled.

What a pity.

These Njords are new to this kind of conflict, they had been raiding in their traditional way for so long it seems a sport. But this is different, this is War.

I breathe deep, taking in the moment. An easy victory over these forces, myself left unscathed. I had swung too far and cut too deep. My sin is my own to bear, and my shame is dwarfed by a courageous soul’s absence.

On the wider battlefield, Sir Minona, Sir Jacqueline, and Lady Lorelai along with some Dunnick skirmishers led by the O’Craigs were able to claim their victory, and we plunge deeper into this conflict.

Naught but Glory.

Alfred Black

Chapter 2: Finding a foothold

The wheel was easy enough to replace on the wagon, a final grunt of exertion was enough to tighten on the final bolt, and with the turning of the mechanism the wagon was lowered onto the ground. Waving goodbye to the members of his flock as they left the market ground his mind looked back to the weekend and to how closely he came to falling into his favorite vice, Wrath.

The assassin said “I feel very conflicted about this” before his hammer smashed into Godfrey’s leg, the old man Agnar of Shadowhall would have cut his head off and hung it from a tree as a warning, Godfrey will knock the weapon away and run. The raiders mocked the Lord and the Prophet, Agnar would have joined in with the jeers, Godfrey will block the blows ment for his flock with his staff and needs be his very body.

“Let me guide you back to violence” said the masked man. he said that after seeing Godfrey sparing with his flock, that was a mistake, Godfrey isn’t wrathful, Agnar was, and Agnar died a long long time ago.

“FEAR” snared the raider to his flock, Agnar would have found that to be an insult and challenged the man to a duel and feasted on his heart and tongue, Godfrey found the fearful and reminded them of how God stand with them and how the lion still roars to remove the fear.

Agnar is dead, but as everyone knows the ghost of the dead can come back. So Godfrey goes to the church that he mans in the middle of the slum and does what he can to make sure Agnar and his ghost stay buried.

The Cost of Kindness

It breaks like strained timber,
splits like iron under frost,
leaves its mark quietly
where no one thinks to look.

A moment becomes a wound.
A choice becomes a bandage.
The world keeps moving,
asking no pardon for the trade.

One man keeps his footing.
Another learns the shape of darkness
behind a strip of cloth.

They call this virtue
because it sounds cleaner than cost.

But I have learned:
mercy is a hand thrust forward
while the blade is still falling.

The Trouble with Service

It was just after the sun had settled behind the high peaks when Felix finally made it back to Hrafnakastali. Saluting the gate guards as he entered, he looked at the courtyard with the few points of light from lanterns and torches and decided it was too late to give his report for how the journey had gone and decided to head to the barracks for some rest.

A few of the guards were coming off duty and he heard them talking about how the miners were being very cooperative with the silver ore exchange. Good, that’ll help the reich. Ah, thinking about that just made him hungry. A problem for the morning.

Pushing open the door to the barracks, he glanced across the nearly empty common room, a few of the fort’s staff lounging around. He cleared his throat

“I’m surprised you beat me back here, Guy really set you on a pace didn’t he?”

Damian scoffed, abandoning his ambush, “Some of us work to finish our jobs in a timely manner. Guy was having a field day in that village. I think he’s a local hero now.”

“Glad to know things went well.” Felix nodded in satisfaction, “The others back yet?”

“Sil is, though he’s doing some scouting – probably be back in a day or two. Mitch apparently got tied up with something back at the Port and might be gone for a while. Gilbert though…” Damian shook his head, disappointed, “He’s here but… you’ll have to see for yourself.”

Felix didn’t like how that sounded. He gestured vaguely to Gilbert’s quarters, and Damian nodded, confirming he should be there. Felix gave him a short wave and set off.

Knocking lightly on the door, he cracked it slightly and said “Felix.” Doing so, he heard the soft click of a hammer being reset. Gilbert was at his desk, a portion covered in a mixture of ledgers and what was unmistakably his latest poem, but before him a clear area with a flintlock on a cloth with some powders and oils set around it for routine cleaning.

Felix closed the door behind him and approached the desk “Damian said there was some trouble at the farms?”

Gilbert finished wiping the barrel of the pistol and turned to face him – with an eyepatch, the space around it red. Felix couldn’t hide his surprise. “Gil! What happened!?”

Sheepishly scratching the back of his head, Gilbert started to explain, “You’ll want the whole story I imagine”

Felix folded his arms and nodded.

“We were building those heavy iron plows for the south farms, that new design from Graham. Everything’s oversized: beams, braces, the lot.” He gave a short exhale. “One of the farmers came to help us test the frame. Good man, but he bumped something he wasn’t supposed to with the lift, and the chain slipped on the rig. Whole frame started to tip forward, something like four hundred pounds of oak and iron, coming down right where the farmer was standing.”

He gestured with two fingers, remembering the angle. “No time to run in. No time to shout anything useful. Just.. line of sight.”

The quartermaster’s hand tapped the edge of his eyepatch. “I drew, fired, and took the bracket clean off the hinge pin. It held long enough for him to dive clear.”

Felix gave a low whistle. “That’s… precise.”

He gave a prideful smirk. “The shot did its job.”

He leaned back. “The problem is what happens when iron meets iron at that range. The powder flash kicked back off the brace plate. A shard of scale and soot came straight back at my face.”

He pressed a hand just to the side of his eyepatch. “This got the worst of it. Didn’t lose it, and Leonora and the other healers say it’ll mend in a few weeks. They just had to get the metal out from around it. The blood though! It looked like I died.”

“So you saved him?” Felix inquired.

“Of course.”

Letting out a heavy sigh, Felix put his head in a hand, “I’m glad you’re still here, but what possessed you to do that?”

“Why, I was only doing what you’re always saying, Felix. Making myself useful. That’s how things get done.”

A Job Well Done

Damian moved quietly across the half-built woodshed roof, balancing a bundle of cedar shingles beneath one arm while trying not to let the planks creak beneath his boots. Guy claimed a good worker, announced himself with the sound of his hammer. Damian preferred the opposite.

As he laid the shingles down, his thoughts drifted to how he ended up here.

‘A perk of being a Porter is that it takes me around enough that in time I get to spend time with everyone. Though, that time is generally short lived. This trip for example let me spend some time with Guy. Such a kind and dedicated man. The kind that reminds you of the value of completing hard work and doing so diligently.’

The villagers of Ciricraga Clyfun had taken to Guy quickly. The carpenter taught while he worked, showing the forester families how to cut straight joints, brace beams against snow weight, and shape pegs that would swell tight when rain came. Damian had expected long days of hauling lumber and listening to old men complain.

Instead, he found himself enjoying the work.

The woodsheds rose first beside the cabins. Then came the hare trapper huts along the outer trails, small lean shelters tucked beneath heavy fir branches. The tanning racks near the creek took longest – and where Damian had spent a considerable amount of effort – but even there Guy turned every mistake into a lesson instead of a curse.

As the weeks of work wore on, Damian started to hope there might be some leftover materials – if there were, maybe he could ask Guy to help him put together something to store his boots a little neater. Being honest with himself, he’d had the idea the week before they set out, after he knew he’d be working with Guy on this effort.

He worked up the courage to ask.

“Hey Guy, could I trouble you for a moment”?

“Yeah, everything alright D?”

“Of course of course. I was just wondering if maybe you thought we would have any extra materials and if -“
Guy cut him off mid request, pointing to the corner of the room.

There, a sturdy and simple, yet beautiful, multi tiered rack capable of holding maybe eight, no, ten pairs of boots. A bit stunned, Damian turned back to Guy.

Guy explained with a grin, “Gilbert and Felix had a hunch and had added it to my list of requests for the trip. You really could have asked sooner. I would have made that for you any time.”

After a brief pause, Damian responded “Thank you Guy. Should I take it back to my quarters”?

“No, no. That one is for the hare trappers. Yours is already back at The Fort. I think you will like that one a bit more”

Damian couldn’t hold back his smile. With a chuckle he retorted “I appreciate you Guy, I will get out of your hair then”.

Guy gave a simple nod as Damian departed.

They made it out of garbage

They made it out of garbage, in a shitty back alley. I paid my last silver for those guys to set up a place for Callum to sell his wares, and they made it out of garbage. What the fuck.

I used to run a God-damned criminal empire. I had a dozen of some of the most competent people you’ve ever met working for me. I had my hands in every dark dealing going on in this fucking place, and loyal lackies who would jump at any command I gave them. I could snap my fucking fingers and get a full new shop set up in an hour, set to sell the finest drugs and contraband this side of the Kaltlina. And now I’m poor and my shop is made out of garbage.

Doing the right thing sucks. I forgot just how much it fucking sucks. Do-gooders don’t have an easy time. We have to worry about feeding the whole damned town instead of just ourselves. We have to consider the far and away repercussions of our actions. We have to make money ~ethically~ and try not to fuck the stupid prideful members of town over. We have to think carefully before threatening to kill an entire noble house…. fuck. Fuck fuck FUCK fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK. Piece of shit town, piece of shit nobles, stupid fucking piece of shit SHOP made out of FUCKING GARBAGE.

I lost my way for a long time. Years. Let the anger take me, let my morals slip because all I wanted was… I don’t know. To fuck people over? To cause problems for the fun of it? To hurt people like I’ve been hurt? I found others similar to me. At first. Eventually I started finding people who were just mad. Angry. People with bones to pick with the people of town. Bounty hunters, mad bombers, angry siblings, spiteful winemakers. Anyone willing to do what I said and a lack of morals. It was exhilirating, having all that reach, all that power. But it was poison to my soul. I had to leave, or I don’t think I would’ve remained the sort of person my friends would recognize.

I’m still in debt to the fucking Disinherited, the damn gang that I MADE. I gave up everything to be here. But I’m doing the right thing. I feel it. This is what the wielder of the Blade of Sorrows is meant to do. And soon Blair, Ciaran, and Callum will be here. The Ordugh Croy back together!

You know, maybe it’s not ENTIRELY made of garbage. I guess the canvas tent top is pretty nice, actually. And that poster board isn’t so bad. And the back alley location sort of reminds me of an old clubhouse B and me used to hang out in… I guess those guys didn’t do all bad…. And it was pretty last minute. Hopefully Callum will like it.

Maybe it wasn’t a waste of silver after all.